The morphine has helped and hopefully, I won't get addicted!

I've been on the morphine for about 5 weeks. I can definitely tell it's reduced the pain.  Am I pain free?  NO!  Will I ever be?  NO!  Too bad for me....

I saw my pain doctor a week ago and he upped the morphine dose from 2 to 3 pills per day.  He thought it might help me through the holidays.  I keep notes of the pain I have daily so I know what's working (not much) and what's not (a lot).  I document the drugs I take in case I have to supplement with the morphine.  I document my activities.  I looked through my notes the other day and I actually had 3 "active days" (active for me, at least).  It was amazing.  I don't know if the 3 morphine pills were the reason.  Wish I could be sure because I would do it every day.

My primary care provider doubled my dose of cymbalta.  I took it for 2 weeks.  I usually have dry mouth and constipation but this multiplied it by 10!  I went back to the 60 mg daily.  No one should have to drink magnesium citrate 2 days in a row to have a bowel movement.

When I first started taking the morphine, I expected it was to reduce the pain so that I could exercise and be more normal.  Now that I'm more active, I know that I have a big decision to make.  I cannot bare the thought of taking morphine for the rest of my life.  Not only is addiction an issue but the dose will have to be increased once my body gets used to it.  The only other option is to lay in bed most of the day.  Hopefully, I can get this figured out soon.

One of the reasons for getting the stimulator was to reduce my meds.  I'm going in the wrong direction!!!

So with the New Year, I'm on to year 19 of my pain struggle.