I thought writing about this would make things better for me psychologically but no..... I thought I was getting better and maybe I have, a little. I'm afraid of the pain which keeps me from doing things. Sometimes, the fear of the pain immobilizes me and sometimes, I push through it. The result is usually horrible and then I can't see through the pain.
EVERYONE and I mean everyone thinks they have the answer. I wish they did. I've tried 80% of the things that are suggested by doctors, family and friends.
I'm 3 weeks post op and going to the pain doctor today. I may have improved SLIGHTLY but not even close to being able to resume a normal life. I can't even do the activities I did before this last surgery. This surgery was not the answer. Of course, I'll hopefully think differently in the near future.
I'm soooooooooo tired of fighting.
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